I wish I could tell you that last night wasn’t horrible. That the migraine that had already wasted most of my yesterday had not just continued to build as the day crept forward.
Continue readingOn wasted days and restless nights.
healing
On what’s in that hole.
It’s 4 AM when it begins. It’s my mind. My heart. They’re awake. Both of them. Wide awake. Again. Processing. Remembering. Pondering. Aching. Heavy. Burdened. Continue reading
Sharing is just so incredibly beautiful ...
On being thankful for Dantrolene.
This was just a few days before I found the first mass in his neck.
It’s been 31 years since they took him from my arms and walked away. I remember watching his huge eyes over the nurse’s shoulder Continue reading
Sharing is just so incredibly beautiful ...
On wishes and fence riding.
I told Tommy this morning that I sure wish I could take some of this from him. Continue reading
Sharing is just so incredibly beautiful ...
On asking for a hand with some really heavy lifting.
I personally thought the chemo was going to be the scariest part. They told us that Tommy Continue reading
Sharing is just so incredibly beautiful ...
On learning to walk gently in some really cute shoes.
Ruby Wren – 18 adorable months old
It’s so quiet here today. After yesterday being so full of giggles and snuggles and endless snacks, today just seems unnaturally silent. Almost deafening in its stillness. Continue reading
Sharing is just so incredibly beautiful ...
Yeah, but can you sing? Like right now??
Trust me when I say that these last few weeks have been rather earth-tilting. I’ve personally been struggling with extra pain and that ever-pressing fatigue. I’ve watched helplessly as my sweet loves have each been fighting their own individual struggles, and I’ve even grieved as one decided that he just didn’t want to struggle anymore. We don’t know why … but he just couldn’t keep doing it. Continue reading
Sharing is just so incredibly beautiful ...
When nobody’s looking at you today.
As a nurse, when I step onto that unit in the morning, I know without the slightest bit of doubt that there will be people looking at me that day. Actually, it’s more than that. They won’t just be looking “at” me, they’re going to be looking “to” me, as well. All day long. Continue reading
Sharing is just so incredibly beautiful ...
When it just has to overflow.
Two long days at the hospital … my body aches, my mind races. Continue reading
Growing Nurse Debi 