When Christmas and puny collide.

20161224_071335-1-11233099358.jpgThere wasn’t even a hint of daylight yet, but I was wide awake with an aching body screaming to get out of this bed. I’ve been fighting to remain at “baseline” while feeling pretty puny for about a week now.

Did you know that Christmas does not stop for puny? Neither does nursing. Nothing does, really.

Time keeps on ticking, lists keep on growing, and panic fights to invade my everything with each new morning’s realization that the world has insisted on continuing to spin – regardless of my weariness and woes.

Slowly, though, through sometimes gritted teeth, Lupus and I are grudgingly reaching a guarded standoff on what my life is going to be like now.

I’m learning to adjust my lists and loosen up my plans – like not making Christmas dinner from scratch this year. My closest loves understand what a struggle this one has been to let go of. Debi has always made everything from scratch.

But, as I sat there in the darkness this morning, I was thinking … Lupus or not … my list is so unbelievably silly in light of Jesus. Really. Have you ever thought about that?

Even if the “big day” is looming. Even if the list of “to-dos” is incredibly long. Even if I’m losing a day of prep time while I’m taking care of patients tomorrow. Even if I haven’t wrapped a single present yet. Even if the laundry still needs folding, even if the bathrooms really, really need cleaning. None of it matters.

For right now … forget the stupid list, Debi.

Forgive yourself for your weariness.

Embrace this stillness. 

Embrace Him.

Just rest.

Be still.

Breathe Him in.

And listen.

God sent this song, “Give Me Jesus” by Fernando Ortega, straight to my stress this morning. Its lyrics instantly quieted me right down and stilled my racing thoughts.

I couldn’t help but grieve the incredibly sad stain that our modern ways have placed on top of our sweet Christmas! Why do we let this happen??

I believe there are many others out there like me who are also needing some stillness and peace right now, no matter what your circumstances may be.

So, please, consider taking the time to close your eyes and let the message of this beautiful song speak to your heart. It sure soothed mine today.

Thanks so much for growing with me.  

“You can have all this world … just give me Jesus.”
 – Fernando Ortega

 

 

 

 

 

4 thoughts on “When Christmas and puny collide.

  1. I am a list maker as well. Some years back my wife gave me a 5×7 notebook with the name Jesus carefully printed atop every page. What a great reminder, as you have said as well, to keep Jesus at the top of all we do. I am praying that God gives you peace in your struggle with Lupus.
    Blessings to you and thanks for sharing this,
    Chuck

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  2. Debi, Thankyou for your inspired sharing. You always invite Jesus into the wiles and wherefore and pain/fatigue of your everyday. And there you regard this God of life with all proper abandon. May the fire and light of Christ continue burn in your heart. May the peace of Christmas dwell within you, and bless those around you.

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    • Oh. Ellen … your prayers echo my own!! Some days are more difficult than others, but Jesus always makes His presence known in the struggles. I’m so thankful He’s given me such a place as this to share what He’s teaching me. Merry Christmas, Ellen, and thank you so much for your sweet words of encouragement. They truly lifted me this morning. ♡

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