I admit it … I’m not having one of my better days. I hurt today. My hands, wrists, ankles, and feet especially. Oh, yeah … and my hips. They’re just so stiff. I’m weary with that ugly heaviness that Lupus metes out. Its shroud weighs me down, causing an exhausting resistance to my every thought and movement.

Regardless, I went outside to my garden this morning because this is what I do. I grabbed my gloves and clippers as I walked over to get the little blue bucket I use to gather clippings for the composter.

I saw this caterpillar on the milkweed … such an amazing creature. As I stood and watched for a moment, I realized that I just can’t today.

I just can’t.

This disappoints me, but it doesn’t devastate me quite like it used to. Maybe I’m finally learning to be okay with this? At least for today I am. Or maybe I’m just too tired to feel anything else right now.

I snapped this picture and turned around, leaving my gloves and clippers in the little blue bucket for another day. More rest is what I need today. More rest. So I walked back inside and shut the door, determined to simply be okay.

Thanks for growing with me. ❤

The Lord is my strength and my shield; in Him my heart trusts, and I am helped.” (Psalm 28:7)