When you finally see the light.

20140123_134814-1I’m a Registered Nurse who’s getting a fresh glimpse at life from the other end of the stethoscope. Lupus seems to be invading my story, and it’s giving me a brand new perspective on effective patient care, as well as embracing life with intention.

I’m also a Master Gardener who’s fascinated by the artistry in developing beauty. I see purpose and charm in every stage of life, and I’ve found there is much to be learned by watching maturity unfold in the quiet of a garden.

My mind is constantly churning. It never seems to stop. Really. Sometimes it’s processing Nursing experiences that have touched me, other times I’m just trying to work through accepting my own illness. Other times I’m just struggling to decompress from the incredible stress of the day. Then there is the planning … the list-making … the designing … the daydreaming. The churning thoughts seriously never stop.

At the center of it all, though, is Jesus. Patiently, ever so patiently, working on my heart.

He holds me as I struggle to find contentment in my new normal. He’s showing me the snarky, rebellious attitude that’s been chasing me around my whole life. He’s teaching me that, through Him, I can do better. I can be more peaceful – see things more clearly, more gently – through His loving eyes. I’m trying but … I’m a work in progress and there are some days where I really just stink at that.

So I’m doing a lot of seeking and praying, a lot of listening and learning, and a whole lot of trusting and adjusting. It’s been quite the ride so far – as it will continue to be as I clumsily try to live out His perfect will for me.

The most exciting part, though, is that it’s slowly dawning on me exactly what I’m supposed to “do” with all this. Because, honestly … on those harder days … I seriously just can’t help but wonder.

God’s whispering to me that I’m supposed to pass it on. And that’s exactly what “Growing Nurse Debi” is all about.

So, please, come grow with me.

“And let us consider how we may spur one another on toward love and good deeds”  (Hebrews 10:24)

 

 

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